I thought IT would never come back, was gone forever, schluss, gedaan, dried up, dead. Drama inside of me, alarm bells. Now life will be just about therapy and being a sensible therapist.
But after months of drought IT is back. That fire burning, that bubbly champagne feeling inside, that wanting to make everything at the same time, that wanting to see a sculpture being born. I am in love with sculpture, in love with clay, the remains of life next to a flowing river, the sediments that become the potential for new a new form of life.
Ok, I admit, the sculpture is currently just…. an egg…. a pomegranate…..but hey! it is…an egg… a pomegranate, and before I know it it is a bird on an egg on a pomegranate tree. A woman holding the bird on the egg on the pomegranate tree. a house housing the woman holding the bird on the egg on the pomegranate tree… etc..
No, it still has to do with still life in still life that is for sure, but the egg came into the picture and that makes all the difference. It was the writing in my last post about my eggs drying up (terrified emoji) that popped up this sentence in my head that is written on the poster of a painting by Marlene Dumas in my atelier that says ‘‘out of eggs, out of business’’. And bam! there it was: ‘‘I am going to make eggs, i might as well, better than nothing.’’ I once had this dream about lots and lots of snake eggs hatching these pastel coloured snakes. I hate snakes, there is nothing in the animal world that I terrifies me more than snakes. There is nothing (in the world of creation) that can move me as much as a sculpture. So I started to make eggs (snake might follow) and the sculpture god saw that it was good. ‘‘That is the begining of the new world, of new life’’ she whispered. And so I might finally make this new world that I was travelling to in 2017, the purple planet. Only it might not be purple but red, like Mars. I actually have no idea (well, I do have a little bit) but I am happy I am making again, am no longer neurotically constipated. The egg is out and that for now is enough!!.